old worn out shirt n shoes...king of the road

Today or tomorrow is another moving day... Someone has givin us a roof.. just need to put it in place and hope its not going to be a baking tin in our wonderful 100 degree southern summer weather. Once more consoliding a storage room for another better year of nonuse. Cant think about just how many mistakes i have made just in the last little while...with no portals anywhere in sight. And no way to really get there even if i could find one.

Had a troubled dream last night of chewing out the past. So angry i was practicly screaming. I was face down and breathing hard into my pillow.

(Truely, i cant breathe pillow!) 

I hope this proves to be a better, low overhead from which to restart from. I hope i can settle in from there and get back to trying to make things better...i tire of all of this uncertainty!

Im getting the idea that the closer i am, the more horrible the mistakes. That really cant be true though.. i make those horrendous mistakes no matter what.

This country has gone mad..maybe ive started to go mad alongside it. .. but wholey for my own nonreasons.