pumpkins an̈d autumn leaves

I can feel the stress starting to mount once again. Lots of waiting, going nowhere. Depending on others. Expecting the world unable to stand alone. Not really wanting to anyway. Frustrating. Playing the victim waiting for the bottom to fall out. This last round of money for rent..has me a bit depressed. No real explanation.. just more of the usual jack-around, trust-me stuff. I didnt give him as many choices this time. I was expecting something this time. Guess hes learning shark ruthlessness. Get the advantage while you can. He talked a good line. Still feel much like i got a lot of snow on my noggin for the effort.