Friday, September 16, 2022

a moment of paranoia?

So .theres this mousehole..in the baseboard of that wall right there. Its just a little thing really....but the thing of it is...not everyone i have spoken to, seems to see it. Or if they do, they just cant understand its importance to the story. One person i know, kept insisting that there is no hole at all.. over and over again..when i asked, she would say, "theres no hole. No problem." Even though there is most certainly a hole there..and thats definatly a problem. Ive touched it. I have felt its edges,.. i have even seen a little mouse moving about in there.  And yet...she persists..'there is no problem there. No hole'..not even a blemish or a scratch, to marr the baseboard. How could this even be? No hole? "Touch it then", i say. But no, she wont do that. Theres nothing there. But there is. "Why wont you touch it? You will see, theres a hole there." And she gets angry. "No!" She yells, holding her hands together. "Your just delusional and trying to drag me into it!." Then she ran off, yelling about how completely unfounded i have been to her. So, i start thinking perhaps shes right. Maybe im just being a lunkhead, giving in to the self doubts for awhile. Its better to just go along, right? But over a bit of time..i have noticed that not only has the mousehole in the wall, not disapeared, its gotten bigger..and i can hear chewing. Not just that but...the other day, i walked by a news stand on the corner of 8th and bingham street..and i startled to see my name. The words "abusive" "delusional" and "tiny mice" accompanying it. Then suddenly, i became aware of the suspicious way people were looking at me. Narrowed eyes and muttering to one another.. i could about feel the red-hot knife of hate. 
I just cant talk about the mousehole anymore.. everyone around me seems to be of the opinion im making it all up. That little hole just keeps getting bigger and bigger...
Then, as i was sitting there, watching the mice coming and going with trails of sawdust.. someone sat next to me..and in a timid voice, whispered ... "Theres a big ol monster-hole in that wall over there. Why is everyone refusing to see it? I just dont understand."

So..there was this girl called kamela...

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