Well .here it is..close to the barrel bottom now. Only leg i have to stand on, being my right, is we are together still..and we have, currently, a way to get out of the rain..or ever-too-hot sunshine, which we have been exposed to quite a bit of late. I really got to see the seedier side of things today ..not to write home about, me thinks. People coping...any way that they can. Im hungry. I need a shower too. Im smelly. There seems no direction to go. Fighting continues. Always, it seems. Still want to blame the clown in charge. Unbelievable. Well. I do hope that the red side wins the country this time. I hope it all gets fixed. Im down too far now to really engage as i might have, beginning of the year. My top dream now is simply this .. a roof, wamth, dryness, and food...and maybe that shower. Thatd be nice. Getting swept up in the homeless pile at/near the borders and downtrodden areas now. Having to be carefull of what we cant get for ourselves.. being a bit sus over what we are given to eat. And where we are choosing to sleep. Saw a man in what we thought might be in a safe place..pretty sure he was sleeping in a nearby space. Made us feel ..uncomfortable. and a fellow called cicel, who went on about a room and a shower, just disapeared. Pretty sure he has been out for longer then he indicated. I only hope the food was alright. Its been cold out at night. I still am. Shivering with a sweater on, in the library.
I sure miss the laze of getting up and sauntering into the ajoining room..flicking on the computer and grabbing a marie calenders out of the freezer for breakfast/lunch. ...good times.
And still...we are lucky to have what little we do.
Sitting here, looking out across the way and the big ol houses on the hill... And wondering, again, just how they do that. Manage such a nice place..even in times such as this. Im angry, im sad. Depressed, displeased, flustered, frightened,..a little, at having to ever be aware. And at where the future is really going to lead us.
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