Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Tera First - step right up


Listening to: "Kiseki" by GReeeeN, "Every Single Day" by Shower
Watching: Murder She Wrote Reruns, ongoing dramas
Playing: Tera
Reading: random blogs, Youtube
mood: Neutral
Latest Topics of Interest: The Rather funny and random directions that spammers take. How to increase comments on a blog and getting the word out there.. come see this site!! :D


Not long ago, I was introduced to a new portal going to a place called Tera. At first it was a crimp really. It's a Huge world, which meant for a loong wait in transit... and then, when I'd finally arrived.. I couldn't seem to view it properly at all. Made my eyes hurt just to read the too small writing on the signs. *rubs eyes* and I wasn't too sure I wanted to stay. I nearly didn't.
As it turns out though, several of my Mabinogi guildies had also located the same portal and helped me to adjust things a fair bit.







So I figured to stick it out a bit longer. Finally having adjusted settings adequately and getting used to things enough to get around, I wandered from this place to that, doing the random quest, and clumsily falling off of the random cliff, doing the occasional face-splat into rocks or trees.. and all too often, backpedaling -into- monsters while trying to keep distance from yet -other- monsters(!!) fortunately, the race I chose is rather adept at running away.






So far, it's a lot of fun exploring and.. knowing there is soo much more yet to be seen is so exciting to me! I understand there is crafting and enchanting available, still haven't figured out much more then extraction and the expense of refinement. >.< Overall, though, this place seems worthy, even for the addition of one small Elin archer.

It seems they have the right idea for what free-to-play should mean. (free-to-play.. all the way through.) The detail is amazing.. maybe not as ooooo'ish as Aion had.. but really pretty nice. General gameplay reminds me a fair bit of the worlds of Warcraft and Everquest 2... as well as the mouse-drive camera weirdness of Dragonquest.. which takes a fair bit of getting used to for me.

As something of a solo artist, this game is very worth checking out. just.. watch out for the little silver poke-balls next to the monsters names. Party monsters are freakingly nasty.

Remember:
The lag monster is alive and well! Have a care, lest you find it chewing on yer heels.


Friday, February 01, 2013

Lets do it!..Here we go!

Listening to: "Every Single Day" by Shower, "All The Things You Never Knew" by Leehom, "Wahaha" by kanjani8
Watching: Youtubers -

Gimmeaflakeman and Tomoko with teaching news,
softypapa and his wildness hikes,
Hallyu Back and her funny drama reviews,
TheJapanChannel for scenes from -the- scene,
Simon's Cat, and Maru

Playing: Mabinogi.
Reading: Magically Dramatical Mistakes, WaniKani, Memrise
mood: Neutral
Latest Rant: Looking for Art Program Tutorials... I need a good one for vectors!..still!!...especially for the PSPro x5


A day like any other really. Future doesn't seem bright, trying to not think on it.. living in the moment. All in all, it hasn't been that bad of a moment really. Not particularly exciting, and not particularly boring or depressing either. Things I'm not happy with.. guess that will always be the case.. in one subject or another.. right? But that, if I pause to really give it some thought, the breeze outside is rather nice too. not too warm, not cold, and no mosquitoes.. or wasps buzzing about to cause concern. Yepyep, I like winter the best of the seasons. Everything is sleeping awaiting spring's renewal.. but for the rabbits and coyotes of course. Dry brown grass rustling in the puffs of breeze.. tossing dead leaves about rather capriciously. bird song tweeting in the winter sunlight. Not a bad time to be paying attention.


As usual in my life, I'm best looking beyond the trees before me at the forest.. as much as I enjoy hearing about and wishing I could explore other places.. This place right here, is ok.. it has its charm.. even if its been largely neglected by me most of the time. I have been in worse places really... other adventures in other timelines... through other portals. Normally, I'd say words best suit the moment, but let me explain my thoughts with something other then words. Oh, and I might mention, these scenes are soo not mine in origin.. they are PD pics found on the net (google Public Domain images). This is Texas to me.























Tuesday, January 15, 2013

The whole world's got Talent


The Worlds Most Amazing Asian Synchronized Dancers



Kitties On The Beat



Ah Ha Lim... wow has he got nimble fingers for the card trick!



I Don't Care Anymore
by Phil Collins

Ever feel like this?

キセキ by GReeeeN



'Secrets' by One Republic
played by Bryson Andres



Money Won't
sung by Brendan Macfarlane



Piano talent
played by GuiGui Zheng



FUNNY XD



Voodoo Chile by Jimi Hendrix
Cover by Luna Lee on a traditional Korean Gayageum



(here's hoping you all can see this one)
Stand by me.. around the world style.






Saturday, January 12, 2013

its a new year..

Listening to: random Video drama Reviews
Watching: old Father Dowling Mysteries
Playing: Mabinogi.
Reading: random blogs
mood: Neutral
Latest Rant: Art Program Tutorials... I need a good one for vectors!

Happy New Year!.. well hope it's going alright for those of you aware of the changes.

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Uphill climb.. From the foot of a mountain range.

Listening to: Hallyu Back Video Reviews
Watching: The Mentalist, Haven, Leverage
Playing: Mabinogi.
Reading: random blogs
mood: slightly irritated
Latest Rant:

Hard to put into words. There are times when I feel almost lonely.. wanting someone with a like mind to share my obsessions and interests with.. and other times when I unintentionally ignore people I should connect with.. like relatives. My excuse is simple enough, to me at least. I really have nothing new to say.

Here come the holidays again. As usual, I am not ready, nor am I really 'feeling' the spirit of it. Is it just me? It probably is.... just more of the same ol feelings of drifting along being of no worth.. floundering. how depressing!


Lingo resources..
Found a nice site for learning a bit of kanji called WaniKani. It has a nice approach for learning.. looking at it from the radical side, rather then the traditional stroke-order side of things. and it also utilizes Mnemonics to help remember them a bit more easily. Only downside is, you get 2 lessons free, then need a monthly subscription to continue... and for us dirt poor/lucky just to be online peoples...its not an easily surmountable issue. but then again, its also fairly cheap considering knowledge vs cost. certainly cheaper by far then if you took a collage class on it.

Byki from transparent software, is still a really good choice for flashcard learning... and even the express allows for user content. Of course, as a free user, you cannot create your own lists, but there are plenty of others offering their lists free.. which makes this software rather nice to keep track of.

And then there's Anki... which, considering the limited resources of any value available free on the net, isn't too shabby. It's a bit like a dictionary of yer own making, and part flashcard tester. Not as colorful and bold, or as voice-worthy as Byki is, it's a work in progress though.. so worth the look-see for language learners.

oh, and take a look at Memrise. Its a bit like an online visual of Anki really. people make up lists with pictures, sometimes sound, and user mnemonics.. and the site quizzes you on them, even sending you reminders as needed. Be aware though, the quizes are on a time limit.. so you can't mull over the possible answers for long.




Kat-Tun's own Kame singing Plastic Tears


Merry Christmas, Happy b-day, St Stephen's Day, Boxing Day, Day of Goodwill, winter solstice, Hanukkah, Diwali, Festival of Lights, Celebration of Light, Soyal, Shabe Yaldā or Shabe Chelle, Mothers' Night, Pancha Ganapati, Dies Natalis Solis Invicti, Yule, Anastasia of Sirmium Feast Day, Malkh, Kwanzaa, Saint John the Evangelist's Day, Holy Innocents' Day, Saint Sylvester's Day, Watch Night, Hogmanay, New Years, Saint Basil's Day, Twelfth Night, Epiphany and/or whatever it is you are celebrating for this month!

You wish me yours and I'll wish you mine, and together this season, we shall be merry!

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

A sudden pet peeve


Listening to: ...
Watching: Grimm, Castle, The Mentalist, Haven
Playing: Mabinogi.
Reading: random blogs
mood: annoyed
Latest Rant: gawd I hate it when.. i get interrupted by a third party, who then gets pissy with me for trying to finish my convo. *heaves a big sigh* Now I'm all annoyed. great.

Also annoyed with changes to something I have finally gotten used to... several things changing just after I finally gotten used to how it all works.

This site was once so nice, small, and stable..


now, it seems, they always come up with an upload error.. So I can no longer use them.. So I currently have no where to post mp3s. *pout*

Blogger has changed rather drastically, and although I can cope with the new editing box.. it's difficult to get past the changes for tags.. as the whole box randomly moves over the top of the editing box and I can no longer use the editing area without having to reload the whole page and then maybe not.

Photobucket has also changed quite a bit. fortunately, they are still allowing me to add to my already massive list of pictures. Just more hoops to jump through.

Yes, I am still a bit growlish with nexon over the pisspoor way they handled the mapletheft. Even after it was finally over the only compensation for having lost a lot of rl money was.. maplestory hair coupons..?!! really?


Added to my list of gripes... do people REally understand the meaning of the genre of romantic comedy? it means, a good portion (if not an equal share) of both romance and comedy in a drama, series, or movie. what it does Not mean is.. a bucket full of tears or traumatic horror being the main if not the sole carrier of the drama. Nor does it mean romance OR comedy. geez people! get it straight already!!
Urg!
If your going to give an answer to the age old question of "which are good romantic comedies?", please don't just answer as you please without first considering the -whole- question.
I swear, some people are dumber then a post with training wheels! \./

Edit:.. DivShare fixed whatever the issue was not allowing me to add songs! YaY! They are great again!

Sunday, November 11, 2012

A road well traveled

Listening to: ...
Watching: 9 end 2 outs, Grimm, The Mentalist, Haven
Playing: Fairyland on Facebook occasionally and Mabinogi.
Reading: uh... Mabi chat?
mood: frustrated, a little tearful and angry
Latest Rant: see below....


you ever find yourself suddenly screeching to a halt in your walk of life with this horrible feeling that your on the wrong road?

and you can just barely make out a path, you 'know' is your opportunity.. but.. its so far away.. might even have missed it already

thats where I am atm. life sucks.

i get mad at myself.. for not having the will to want to even reach for that path.
because it seems when Running for it in the past.. i ended not a cm closer... just on the same-o different place, same channel
same place different channel.. completely like the original really
so i stop even wanting to look, much less reach for it.

these dreams are well out of reach for me. too far

i feel i am wasting my life...
like im just going in circles

time hasn't said 'bip' this whole last several years. and trying my best.. just landed me in the same situation

i figure.. if i can reach this dream.. I'll make another to reach for. right?
but i cant even reach this one.
kinda makes me feel its all a bit fruitless. meaningless
i grow weary of spinning in circles

if I'm not moving. im stagnating. to stagnate for me, is to die

i have a goal.. i cant make out its detail..
but no idea how to reach it and its too far away to want to try

in the past, when confronted with such a dilemma.. my response was flight...
but really. i cant do that this time.
every time i ran away, it just landed me in the same general situation
feels a bit like a cage with no visible bars
its frustrating

i know.. its all a bit esoteric or something... like smoke or.. fog or something..
guess thats what makes pipe dreams
frustrates me doubly that i cant find any answers.. no matter where or to whom i ask
so ..it's ok if you dont know what to say :)

I understand




there is something about writing.. perhaps.. no confidence though. why?!!

Thursday, October 11, 2012

more video talent?

If Super Mario Land only had Lyrics




Wahaha
by Kanjani6




Don't Know
by MBLAQ

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

ano...

Listening to: Nightmare Before Christmas ost, The Piano Guys
Watching: Drama- Vampire Prosecutor 2
Playing: Dragonnest
Reading: reading? um.. this post?
mood: slightly under the weather... which is too sunny for my liking.
Latest Rant: a little disgruntled over the new editing hoops to jump through on blogger. for example... the fact that the sideline pull out for labels goes out too far and offsets the main editing window with no way of getting it back to normal size. Also, the labels themselves, has a way to 'select' up to 10 labels... but no way to 'exclude' up to 10 labels. and.. while there is a way to preview posts you are editing, there is no way to see the post you were working on after it has been posted. This is especially annoying if the post you are working on, happens to be an old one.

And while I'm on the soapbox, here's another growl-out for Maplestory.. who -knows- they messed up big time, when they allowed hackers to have access to even the most secure accounts on Nexon.. Even of those who no longer play the game but play others in the Nexon fold. And then, to dare compensate with crap on maplestory only? what the heck? ok ok.. maybe I should be thankful you compensated at all.. but really.. I have zero desire to play that game ever again, nevermind that my computer will no longer even play it anymore. my greatest desire is to totally scrap those maplestory characters altogether and leave my account to the games I -do- still play.

and in a related note... what about "free2play" do most game companies not get? free-to-play does not mean.. free-to-try, not for 10 mins, or 2 days.. or until level 5. It's not a limited thing! Nor does it mean.. Free to Play.. so long as you have money to spend on items needed for additional level kudos or access to special areas to be able to continue the game with. (gasping breath!)
It means that it's actually possible to play clear through the game without spending anything in rl moneys.. But... if you want that spiffy outfit or you simply must have that flashy cool mount.. you can pay for it and look super cool as you head for the 'finish line'. you can also buy power ups or super boosts, or special resurrection tabs to help you on your way.
Not to name names, and yet I just might... but really, guys, get yer act right if yer so determined to play the part. *grumble mumble*


Feeling restless and horribly disappointed in my online game home, I'm once more considering options.. and new portals to peruse. I'll be sure to let you all know how it goes.



Mabinogi g16



Vindictus



Dragon nest


Dragon Nest...


Eden Eternal



Monday, September 10, 2012

...and again..


not sure just what became of my contacts list in the msgrs i use.. but although the program starts up and seems fine, i have no list... nor can i ask for ask for add with someone I know was on the list. *looks totally lost and confused* well, I'll keep trying.. but for those who might be wondering where I got to, there's my reason.


update: finally got to the point where I can re-add people if they msg me first. It does go through now. So.. if you want to chat with me on im.. be sure to send me a msg!!

Tuesday, September 04, 2012

lets try that again..


Listening to: "Freedom" by Kat-tun
Watching: Drama- pit-a-pat my love
Playing: Dragon nest.
Reading: JP for buzzy peeps
mood: s-ok
Latest Rant: They need to give peoples a bit more inventory space in Dragonnest to fit all those 'supeshul shtuffs' that you have no use for until later.. after you can no longer get them.

Hihi back on the net again. yay!! -took long enough-... well, its good to be back again. I have really missed having access to things and being able to chat with friends. I missed watching dramas.. unfortunately, the first one I got hold of just happened to be another of those reeeaalllyyy long one's I'm having to wade through.
I missed youtube's music vids and world events. I even missed the local weather page! It's amazing how,.. even being a naturally appreciative personality.. you still are not aware of just how much those things have really influenced you're life..until you no longer have them around. It certainly made me marvel at just how addicted I am to the net,.. especially considering how long I have determinedly been on it.

oh yeah, happy labor day yall. and if you see me about, be sure to wish me a happy b-day for the 8th. ^ ^ I'm thankful its no more "happy birthday, now go to school!" LOL! I want pocky.. and fishie-shaped cookies with sweet bean filling! :D



Monday, August 20, 2012

Can I kick my computer yet?

Hi again. Been suffering computer issues again this whole month,it seems like. Ninny thing just refuses to do some of the things I'd really like it to do! So-while it's being waited on I am stuck without. Hopefully be back soon though!
Growing tired of having to deal with the unanswered problems of my online home -unsure quite what to think yet.
Well, at least this has afforded me time for study. Yay, go me! (sarcastic snort)
I miss my dramas!

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Here we are again.. another time around the wheel

Listening to: "Sha Sha De Yong Qi" by Fahrenheit
Watching: Drama- Gentleman's Dignity
Playing: fairyland in Facebook. Mabinogi.
Reading:
mood: -.-
Latest Rant: %^#%&*!! Maplestory!! Fix yer meekin game already! I want my NX back!
_____________________


Finally got the place back into tolerable levels of heat. whew! ..now to get rid of ala eye-strain headaches.

Finally got a little bit of editin love for my drama blog. Yay for Darkelfie!! BTW! Your welcome for the name borrow, Darks. If you ever want to start over with yer own bright idea, let me know so I can re-add ya. It's such a relief to me to have someone else helpin out a little. All those links can get intimidating after awhile.

For Those just now wondering what 'drama blog' I am referin to.. It's name is Magically Dramatical Mistakes. It's a review, among other things, of Asian dramas and movies. Please do give it a look-see and if you like it, do leave a comment.
http://mdramam.blogspot.com/



oh! This 4th! I survived it again this year! and without actual tears too! it went by and I actually -wasn't- affected beyond a somber twinge or three. I even watched the fireworks! Perhaps I have found the right distraction combo at long last! woohoo! I sat there, being anti-social, as usual, and listened to music while thinking about symbols, words, dreams and dramas. lol!
For those of you with no clue as to what I'm talkin about, sorry. I have really sad memories for this time of year. usually, I am close to tears and depressed through much of it, particularly so when watching/hearing fireworks. I know its not a good time for me to be alone. so I go wherever there are friendly people, who don't give much mind to the sad girl in the corner.. I'll be fine. really. Just one of those times of the year, i suppose.
Anyway!...

I'm thankful for God, Family, and Friends...without whom I would be the worlds most sad hopeless and helpless soul.



Portal news:

Mabinogi has turned another chapter in their book of generational leaps. Thats not to say it isn't fraught with glitches and fairly unpopular twists,.. still.. thus far, I'm rather enjoying some of the easier redos for g1-3. Feels good to think I can actually be of success at some of these quests after all this time. lol! so far so good in rolling through the first two gens by bow alone.
Also added fun, are the new fighter skills. Wield a pair of knuckles and those grizzlies that tested yer resolve before.. are toast!

Also, Mabi UA has taken on the refugees from Mabi EU servers.. not sure just what the issue was, but it's always rather nice to meet new faces. so Welcome Mabi Europe! Such welcome goes for all you possible mabi-ites as well!..

Come check out Fantasy life Mabinogi! One of the best of Free2play Games on the net!
http://mabinogi.nexon.net

Saturday, June 23, 2012

its a title

Listening to: "Pray for Japan" by Funky Monkey Babys
Watching: trying to think about it. .. soo hot tho.
Playing: fairyland in Facebook. stopped by online home, Mabinogi. played a bit of free Warcraft. (free2play until 20th level).
Reading: Japanese for Busy People ... who... arn't .. really that busy.
mood: hot and slightly grumpy
Latest Rant: Why is it I can't even think of a picture to go with ナ - na ??? Yeass, it -does- look like a knife.. doesn't solve the problem though! I need a NA picture I can remember!

Ahh so good to be back online once again! And with my own computer too! :D

Found a thought-provoking blog today. Seems this guy is doing similar to me, trying to learn Japanese step by step because of a lifelong interest. only problem is.. just after mentioning how cool technology is, he stopped posting... that was in Jan of 2010. Why stop?!! I just now found you!! Geez.. a few years too late, I guess. seems to ever be the case with me. ah well, guess I'll just... look through the past posts and hope for a few gems to keep me going with.

For me, it's mostly Japan, but I also have interest in knowing more about South Korea as well. Perhaps it's the whole 'Asia' thing, perhaps its all the dramas I have watched. lol! I imagine though, its a mix of both and a lot more.
Japan has a beauty in its language to me, like the words of a song you can only hum along to. There is elegance and charm in the very fiber of its people and traditions. Even as I can also see the not so wonderful things that is Japan, I feel I might could understand in some sense, as to why it is.

If I'm allowed a quote here..
"I will admit I'm not an expert on Japan. I couldn't recite the history of the country, I couldn't name the lineage of Emperors, I couldn't tell you the names of the past several Prime Ministers. I'm merely a person who has always had a fascination with a country that remains faithful to its history and traditions, and maintains a certain aesthetic tranquility, harmony and artistic quality to it, even in its bustling cities."

-Brendan にほんごがすこしわかります!(I Understand a Little Japanese!) http://brendanese.blogspot.com/2009/09/introduction.html

Kind of puts it nicely for me as well. Gambatte Nihon!




あとひとつ "atohitotsu"
by Funky Monkey Babys

Monday, June 18, 2012

some like it hot hot hot!.. some know better.

Sorry, I haven't been about of late, My computer is suffering issues of an unknown nature (bet it had something to do with that last HuGe lighting strike) and has been given into hopefully more competent hands then are my own in this matter, since then, I have been relegated to finding the time for my online addiction at the library for a bit.

Hopefully the issue will be corrected before too long and I'll be happily dancing the web freely once more.



Listening to: "Bokura no machi de" by Kat-Tun, "Sora mo Toberu Hazu" by Spitz
Watching: whatever I can next manage..
Playing: solo thumb wrestling.
Reading: Japanese for Busy People ... who... arn't .. really that busy.
mood: soooon, it must be... sooonn!!
Latest Rant: It's too hot to think straight.

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

A day in the life. ... still not much to say.

It's gotten hot here in TX. I'm not happy about it. I have been concentrating a bit more on my drama blog of late. Staying out of the heat as much as possible. Sorry to say TX summer, but I'm a cool/cold-weather girl.


Listening to: "Don't Know" by MBLAQ, "Breath" by B2ST
Watching: Queen Inhyun's Man
Playing: Castleville on Facebook and Mabinogi.
Reading: drama reviews. general kana
mood: ehh.
Latest Rant: Why is there so much umph on learning hiragana, and not hardly enough on katakana use.. when katakana is used more in Japanese writing, with hiragana only used as a helper, isn't it?

Sunday, May 13, 2012

More on the video front


La Linea Series - Episode 1 of 90


The Riddle
remixed by Gigi D' Agostino
song by Nik Kershaw
animation by Andreas Hykade
in La Linea style


Animator vs Animation
by alan Becker
followed by no. 2 no. 3 and no. 4



created by Madyeti47 Dony Permedi Animation
music by Tim Cassell



Simon's Cat



Mabinogi fun


Saturday, May 05, 2012

rants n raves... right.

Listening to: "Don't Know" by MBLAQ, "Breath" by B2ST
Watching: Rooftop Prince, King2hearts, Queen Inhyun's Man
Playing: Castleville on Facebook and Mabinogi.
Reading: reading.. reading.. uh...
mood: ehh.
Latest Rant: see below....

here's one... Not terribly impressed with bloggers upcoming changes. Seems to be making things harder rather then easier for us bloggers. ok, yeah, I know, the changes are 'small' and can be worked around... but there sure seems to be a lot of the annoying little buggers.

I did try using it.. I suppose I shall -have- to try again soon.. but its difficult to get used to for me. First that comes to my mind, is the whole, let's go back to edit that post you made about ohhh a month ago... somehow you remember all the right html.. and you finish editing the post and... how to repost it? ah, at the top, ok.. and.. err how to see the post? I don't actually care a fig for the preview since I know what I wanted to say... just... maybe I would like to follow a link that's one the post?... can't I just view the posted page? no? no.. I have to go searching for it all over again. geez.

now to be a little fair about it... I do rather like the expanded space for the post.. no more trying to fit everything into the little box. Just have to be more careful as to where you hit the return and where you put the silly br tags.

This is about as bad as Facebook's Timeline in the great unpopularity contest.

and just what is all this about country by countrys anyway?

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Lost in the valley of blehs

******
Listening to: "Wake Up" by Sung Joon
Watching: Rooftop Prince, King2hearts
Playing: a little bit of Castleville on Facebook.
Reading: Japanese manga translated to English
mood: sick.
Latest Rant: Why do people enjoy bandying the Word "Hate" about so freely?
******

I got knocked over with a fierce cold a day or so ago so have been spending the time dizzily sleeping, sneezing, coughing, hacking, irritated, annoyed, muffled, muzzy-headed, too hot, too cold, sleepy. sniffing, aching, headache, unsatisfied... not much(any) fun at all.

The weather here has finally gotten back into its usual springtime rain/sun/wind groove. We had such a ..non-existant winter, I was really starting to wonder.

what else... um.. uh.. still working a bit on drama blog pages.. still studying... going really slow atm tho. Not feeling in the mood to do much more then grumble, groan, whine,... and generally feel directionless.

I think I have a few too many of these kinds of days...

Thursday, April 12, 2012

watched Anime

Yobi, the Five Tailed Fox
Movie 85 mins
Yobi
A slightly melancholic story. The aliens were cute, Yobi was cuter in her curiosity and playful impishness.

A small 5-tailed fox, living with a group of aliens, sparks an idea to rescue one of their family members from the human school children camping nearby. So under human guise, she joins them, hoping to convince the errant alien to return to the mountain with her. She is pursued by a hunter who is determined that she would not steal a human soul so she can be human... not that she wants to.


Kiki's Delivery Service

Kiki and Jiji
Fun story about a young witch, just coming of age, moves to a human city with her cat and gets a job working delivery out of a hilltop bakery.


Night on the Galactic Railroad/ 銀河鉄道の夜/ Ginga Tetsudō no Yoru

Giovanni
I didn't quite get to finish this one as the last part could not be found anywhere I looked on the net. I felt for little blue kitty, Giovanni. I understand there is a live-action of this film called "I Carry the Ticket of Eternity". I would like to see it, if it can be found.

A somber tale about a poor boy called Giovanni, who catches a galaxy train to the stars with his best friend, Campanella. There they meet several interesting sorts, including a fellow who catches swans and watches as they dissipate into 'sand' in his bag, a blind wireless operator who hears a staticy refrain and prayer, and a tutor with two youngsters, who tells him a story of being aboard a sinking ship.






Sunday, March 25, 2012

Song and Dance


Lindsey Stirling



Ascendead Master
Versailles



A Tango Performance
Inga Savitskaya (Inga Sawicka) - Moskwa 2004



Lesson In Leaving
Jo Dee Messina



Michael Meets Mozart
1 Piano, 2 Guys, 100 Cello Tracks
The Piano Guys




Boyfriend
by Boyfriend



Chocolate Love
by SNSD



Love Ya
by SS501

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Another Day another nothing special.

I am continuing to update my drama blog.. still hoping for pleasing improvements. Eventually, I'm hoping to have actors linked with drama's so it'l be just a click to find another good drama/movie to watch. right? lol! go check it out! *poke link below*
--}Magically Dramatical Mistakes{-- post a comment to say you were there.

Haven't felt up to dealing with much else of late.

Language studies are still very slowly marching onward.. dunno if I'm actually learning anything or if it's just a mean circle of re-learning what I already should know. *yawwn*

I haven't seen any new portals of late, but then I haven't really been looking either... its a slump, I think.


******
Listening to: "Boyfriend" by Boyfriend, "Chocolate Love" by SNSD
Watching: Skip-Beat drama, Dream High 2, Shut up! flower boy band, Hungry! and Great Inheritance.
Playing: a little bit of Castleville on Facebook.
Reading: drama listings
mood: down-Neutral *glances over shoulder once again* >.> slightly bored and uncomfy.
Latest Rant: Facebook's changing-without-informing policies.

Wednesday, March 07, 2012

confused garblness

Having ongoing issues with my sister.. *rolls eyes* more 'drama' I don't need from that corner.. All the pissiness isn't worth the accumulated stress imo. There isn't much in life that's worth that.

Also moving all my aDrama review stuff onto a new blog spot. Whew, sure are a lot of them. lol!! If yer looking to see brilliance in slow motion go check it out! *poke link below*
--}Magically Dramatical Mistakes{--


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Listening to: "Boyfriend" by Boyfriend, "Full of Happiness" by Super Junior, and "Chocolate Love" by SNSD
Watching: Once upon a time, Castle!, Skip-Beat drama, Dream High 2, Shut up! flower boy band, and Hungry!
Playing: a little Mabinogi.. not much else.
Reading: drama listings
mood: flustered and grumpy
Latest Rant: growl, hiss, spit, pfft!!
Too much to go into really...

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

A few (more) good anime

Natsuiro no sunadokei/ hourglass of summer (Japanese)
movie - 2 episodes

Kotaro Makimura
Ligene
the ova was short and rather sweet. Kotaro has plans to confess to Kaho before summer vacation but after running into a mystery girl, and getting tossed about in time a little bit, learns that the girl of his dreams is in danger. then he meets the time patroller he ran into, who tells him the details of the coming accident and that in order to save kaho, he has to save another girl from his school's swim team... which he does. But somehow it doesn't stop the event from occurring.



Kaichou wa Maid-sama/ Maid-sama (Japanese)
26 episodes

Takumi Usui
Misaki Ayuzawa
Cute if a bit light..even for a soujo..
Misaki is head of the school council and rules with something of an iron thumb. She is constantly riding the guys cases for causing grief to the girl students.. then she gets acquainted by one guy in particular who shadows her doggedly until the end.



Kamisama Hajimemashita (Japanese)
13 episodes

The temple's previous owner
A homeless human girl is given a 'godly' earth mark on her forehead and given care-taking over a temple of match-making. There she meets the familiar of the place, a fox demon, and eventually falls in love with him.










Wednesday, November 09, 2011

Ah finally! changes are a-foot! ..or maybe a wave.

It's finally cooled down here.. almost overnight really. Like as if the local fall faeries suddenly realized the lingering summer months were overdue for a change.

I managed to catch up on a couple of dramas and updated the blog listing. For those of you hoping I had finally quit the obsession-for-dramas.. sorry, it hasn't totally left me yet!

As for my favorite portal to date.. I am glad they managed to get the new gen out, the trading system is rather cool and I was happy to see the ox event return. .. still.. the company imms have robbed me of my guild leader in a total sense, and I have found myself nearly in a perpetual flummox of frustrated feelings. Yes, I know, not exactly a reason to feel so low about it... not exactly any mutuality... and I was already feeling saddened for the distance I was beginning to feel. The guild itself had gotten so very quiet... and when there was chatting, it felt it was mostly 'continuation sentences' I was not given to understand. But still.. the leaders caused movement in an otherwise still pond. And atop all that, my giant along with several mules, have been abruptly locked out... which, although I'm certain was not intended, is nevertheless as annoying as the strong impression that the imms are likely ignoring tickets all-together.
And then there's this.. slightly annoying guy, who on the one hand, is nice as can be, and on the other, someone I'd like to avoid. Maybe all the hot then sudden freezing temperatures is making me unseasonably grumpy.

In the world of life... There is this island whose people and culture I Greatly admire in so so So many ways, who had some cataclysmic difficulties earlier this year. If I somehow had the monetary means, I would certainly have done what I could to help them out, but really all I could do was shake my head sadly at their plight and pray my mental support... which I continue to do so.. and searching the net in hopes of catching good news that things are possibly improving for them. I feel deeply for those who passed on, of both the 2-legged and 4-legged variety and more-so for those left-behind in this life without them. Such a tragedy really. (and still on-going, as I understand.)
Its horrible that all that beautiful scenery, and affected villages/towns/and cities that, by necessity, had to be abandoned...or simply wiped away as if they never were.
My thoughts to the people there are thus:.. I know, you have been there for so very long... I know, it's hard to have to leave, and it's likely going to be even harder to find a new place to go. but please, if you feel your life is at stake by unseen danger, please -do- take the steps needed to see you and your families, including the 4-footed members, to a safer place in which to live... even if its just to a nearby island or a further-from-danger city.

I had a rather odd dream last night..in which someone who was very important to me had shown up at a planned camping trip. I was trying to accept that the trip was being postponed, when he spoke up, asking if I wanted to go with them and relief
flooded me. his smile was gentle, warm, and evident.. and I wondered if it might be a last gesture of care or favor I was to ever receive from him. I woke up with a sigh.. feeling sadness and a small warm smile fingering inside. There are times.. even now.. when I really miss you. I said I never would lie like that ever again.. and I never have. I bet you know that though. I really am sorry.
Ducky!.. are you still there? are you ok?



Listening to: "Zombie Love song" by Your Favorite Martian.
Watching: Castle, Sanctuary, and Terra Nova
Playing: Mabinogi
Reading: This post, wiki, general surfing the net
mood: neutral, slightly grumpy
Latest Rant: While I realize the Gov on the financial Island were likely intending to keep the public from panic, I do hope they realize their mistake in trying so hard to downplay things... because the result was the people's distrust.

The thing about trust... its fairly easy to have, but once you lose it, Its quite difficult to ever fully retrieve again.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Video Gems from around the virtual globe

Swiss yodeling.



A Mennonite choir singing in NY 'ground zero'



Chinese bamboo flute (dizi)



African song and hop



Scottish pipes and drums



Didgerido and dance street performance


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and a bit of extra credit for amazing talent ..Somewhere in the world.

smooth dubstep



Asian gymnasts synchronized dance

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

catching up a little more..

hey there..
Of late, I have been re-watching several drama's I really enjoyed the first time through when I got started on this little obsession. lol! They are still just as wonderful as when I first saw them.
so if your up for the review,.. or perhaps the first time.. take another look at

The 1st Shop of the Coffee Prince
Yoon Eun Hye as Go Eun Chan
Gong Yoo as Choi Han Kyul
Lee Sun Gyun as Choi Han Sung
Chae Jung Ahn as Han Yoo Joo

and The Vineyard Man
Oh Man Suk as Jang Taek Gi
Yoon Eun Hye as Lee Ji Hyun
Kim Ji Suk as Kim Gyung Min
Jung So Young as Kang Su Jin
and the wonderful Lee Soon Jae as Lee Byung Dal

Next up is.. My Girlfriend is a Gumiho!

Studies have been going quite slow.. plodding at best... but at least there's still a bit of interest in the movement eh? Too hot to do much more then a stagger anyway.
Can hardly wait for the winter's cooling temperatures.

Friday, August 05, 2011

catching up a little..

Hey there.. just to say I said so...

I fixed the autoplay on the music box thingie to the right of this posting... at last! so now it doesn't automatically play when the page is loaded. yes the music is good, yes its wonderful to hear.. but.. sometimes, I'd rather hear the video's and/or the mp3s I have added to a post instead... and while I could just turn the music box off, it's an extra step I'd rather not have to take... I'm lazy, face it.

Also, got good advice from a friend and picked up an inventive little add-in to obliterate interrupting commercials on the pages of my favorite shows. It works soo well!! even on the one's seemingly 'in' with the show videos. So, in that respect, I am verrry happy right now. :D I guess I didn't overly mind most of them, but some of them wouldn't even mute, they'd just start blasting away in the middle of a show's tense or quiet moment.. worse then an ill-timed phone call or something.

Going extra slow on studies. Feeling a tad overwhelmed by the task... but I'll get there. I'm determined to push through and accomplish the thing! I never have been good at competition.. seems, anytime I am forced to rush, I manage to screw things up. So this time.. hows it go? slow and steady wins the race?

Right now, TX is wilting under a heat wave of triple digits.. and makes the saying a true one, that tx summers -require- a working air conditioner. plehh! so, what in the world, is a cold weather girl, like me, doing in sizzleworth central? even I haven't figured out that particular riddle.

What else.. um.. feeling a tiny bit left out with guild friends of late.. although, perhaps I'm deserving.. I haven't been in mabi a whole bunch of late either. have to keep it in mind to get on a bit more, if for no other reason, to re-connect with my best friends there... especially because said silly friends, are not often on msn, aim, or any of those im types very often.
I miss the ol mr. R .. rather acutely. people change, I know. and I try to not let my missing/saddness show too much for fear it will become annoying to others... but I feel it just the same. Once again, I find myself wondering if the changes are for the improvement or not... even while knowing, once again, there's nothing I can say or do about it either way.
I also miss mr. A.. and all I can really say is.. i'm sorry... if I had it to say over again, I wouldn't respeak the same words.
I am glad mr W and I seem to be getting along again. Found a niice picture to chat about. hehe and he seems to be willing to take on a bit of good-natured teasing about it.

Been playing a bit of eden eternal and dragonnest. eden eternal needs a better.. or better explained crafting system. and dragonnest really needs to fix quest bugs, explain/or add-in their crafting system so maybe we can dispense with the character clone wars going on. And add more quest content for levels 14-16... at least that!

I did re-connect with an old guild leader from runes of magic. So good to hear from her again! wishing we had another game in common though. Seems she had gained the attention of a purrty serious stalker and that led to abandonment.. or purrhaps it was the abandonment that led to the stalker's exposure.. or maybe it all just kinda happened at the same time. either way, the game just stopped feeling right to me, after she left. so I left also.

Did a little reading online and found a possible connection relating to my ear/eye issues.. dunno if that really means anything at all, but its info... and its good to be reminded that a medical practice, really -is- just that. practice. Sometimes, they really just don't have the answers and need to employ what is known best as.. an educated guess. I really need to find my way to a specialist at some point before I fall apart completely or something that's equally disastrous.

Reality has been a bear thus far this season... looking forward and hoping for a bit more escape time soon.

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updated: Took a bit of movie advice and watched "The Help". At first I was a little bored.. Much like the start of gone with he wind or somesuch. but after a bit, I started to really like the 'skeeter' character and the women she interviewed for the novel she was writing. Like her mother said.. "Sometimes courage skips a generation. Thanks for bringing it back.." It certainly did take courage, both for the person writing the story, and for those who stepped up to share what they knew to be, even at a possible cost to their lives and those of their families.
*****

Listening to: "what should I do?" by jang geun suk and "Precious one" by Kat-tun
Watching: Haven, Leverage, Warehouse 13, Castle, youtube, and various Drama's online.
Playing: Dragonnest, Eden Eternal, and a little of Mabinogi
Reading: This post, wiki, and facebook.
mood: neutral, slightly amused
Latest Rant: TX heat being waaay too hot for my tastes and how its threatening to kill the yard trees already! It's already killed what little green grass there was.


Eden Eternal

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Keeping with the good (video) times

Let The Good Times Roll by Shirley & Lee
covered by carlsborgbob



Wake me up when september ends By Green Day
covered by Sungha Jung



No Other
by Super Junior




Qing Hua Ci
by Jay Chou

Jay Chou - Qing hua ci by sushii-viet


Fragrance Of Rice (Dao Xiang)
by Jay Chou



Cry
by MBLAQ

Monday, June 13, 2011

Sharing space with a few good anime

Summer Wars ** (Japanese)
Movie


Love Machine and King Kazma


A young math genius is chosen by a pretty friend to go with her to celebrate her grandma's 90th birthday. While there, and reluctantly posing as her boyfriend, he receives a midnight math puzzle over his cell, which he solves. the next morning though, its in all the news that the central password on the virtual world called Oz, in which many things in life depended upon, had been compromised, and Kenji was being looked for in connection. As the area goes wonky, Kenji, and the girl's entire family get involved in trying to win back the compromised accounts before the rogue program calls down a nuclear war via satellite.


The Girl Who Leapt Through Time ** (Japanese)
movie

Chiaki Mamiya
Makoto Konno

This is the story about a school girl who discovered the ability to leap through time. At first she is heedless concerning possible branching issues.. rather in spite of her Aunt's advice and goes about passing her tests with winning fore-knowledge and playing matchmaker with her two best friends. Eventually though, trouble is revealed and the girl is hard-pressed to make it right once more before time runs out.


Whisper of the heart/ 耳をすませば/ mimi wo sumaseba ** (Japanese)
movie

Seiji Amasawa
Shizuku
This is the story of school girl who, at first is flustered to discover that every fairly-tale book she has checked out of the library has been first checked out by a guy going to her school. The boy confesses he has had a thing for her for some time, but that just as he was given the opportunity to let her know, he was off to Italy for a chance to become a professional violin maker.
Lacking direction in her own life, the girl vows to write and complete a story in the two months he is gone, using a beautiful yet peculiar cat statue for inspiration.

.....What a handsome fellow, the Baron is ... even through the poor quality of the video.


The Tibetan Dog ** (Chinese)
movie
Doogee

A young boy is sent to his father, a plains doctor, after his mother dies. There he makes the acquaintance of A large golden Tibetan dog he calls Doogee. The dog is accused of killing people in the area, when really it is a demon with glowing red eyes, whom Doogee has been tracking the whole time.

Friday, May 20, 2011

Portalness

I have heard about the possibility of a new portal (Dragonnest) opening up sometime this summer.. Which, I am told, should be quite exciting. Since portal hopping is still considered free (to play) I might just have to go take a look when I get the chance.

A friend of mine once told me about another such portal leading to a place called the Gates of Andaron which, although a fairly small world, is graphically well made up. might be worth the look-see, eh?

Friday, April 08, 2011

in the meanwhile... Real Life makes a mess of my Fantasy Life.. again.

Welcome to 'this' time of year!

Life is, as ever, full of ups and downs in a never ending loop rather like a nonstop roller-coaster. Atm I am coasting in a kind of low flat area.. hoping to keep my nose, at least, out of the water. A rather dull time.

I developed a nerve kink or something about a week ago, somewhere around my right shoulderblade. This has put the whole of my right arm on a constant conniption alert.
It blinkin hurts ala time!.. but especially when I bend over or put pressure on just about any part of my arm... which includes simple leaning. Meanwhile, on the other side, one of my fingers has been half numbed for weeks... why, im not sure. prolly another pinched nerve?

Then to add to the physical issues.. I need to see another doc about my hearing etc and maybe get disability straightened out... and unemployment hoops to jump through.. and...

I have a good friend feeling so low with life he's attempted to end it early.. which i consider a serious cop-out. so fighting between feelings of anger, and concern/support over this. i do wish there was an easier answer for the friend. I really do. and...

Personal feeling s of inadequacy and unrequited-ness. Just not sure why really. Maybe just influence from the changing weather patterns or maybe its just ".. a bit of undigested beef a blot of mustard, a crumb of moldy cheese, a fragment of an underdone potato" perhaps? (Scrooge in A Christmas Carol) and...

The weather has been mostly beastly of late, welcome to the southern sizzle of summer. ugh!



In portal news though.. Found one leading to a Final Fantasy styled world the other day (rather in spite of the video on the page, which looks more like Vindictus). It's kinda neat... except for the limit on the number of kills in a given area.. and the gajillian questions I have concerning crafting. Is there no help for this?
Its called Atlantica oh, and for those interested.. its a new part of the nexon 'free-to-play' games list along with Vindictus and Dragonnest.






Thursday, March 24, 2011

The talented voice.. in Video

Cover of Smooth Criminal
by Michael Jackson

Cello magic by Stjepan Hauser and Luka Sulic



Cover of Welcome to the Jungle
by Gunz n Roses


2CELLOS Welcome To The Jungle by Rivevideo



Flight of the bumblebee
piano magic by Maksim




One Man Disney Movie

by Nick Pitera




Somewhere Over the Rainbow
by Harold Arlen and lyrics by E.Y. Harburg

Rendition by Israel "IZ" Kamakawiwo'ole




Torture
by 183 Club




Mine
by Taylor Swift

Cover by AHMIR




King of Anything
by Sara Bareilles



(Ahemm.. I'd personally like to dedicate this song -king of anything- to a person who shall forever remain Tail-o'n'-fire locked away somewhere in a dark corner of my heart. Finally done with it. Yeah!)

Sunday, March 20, 2011

moving drama 3

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Listening to: same stuff as before
Current Show: dramas... still.
Feeling: alright.
Internet Tabs: Mabinogi, Youtube
Obsessing Over: nada
Current Rant: hmm. none atm

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Relief and Concern

Hey there..

After a short pause of held breath, finally i can breath a sigh of relief again. Got a visit from my sis, bro and his gf and weathered it alright, i suppose. had some laughs. it was really good hearing bro's voice more then anything.. not sure why that is. I just really liked listening to him. maybe it was because he was sober.. or somehow clearer.. or maybe it was just a reaffirmation. not sure.
It was, as always, great to hear my sister's laughter. and the gf fit in so well, I nearly forgot that she wasn't already family several times. is that somehow wrong? hmm. 'mom' didn't show up.. I was wondering in the back of my mind if I should have called her, but then, after hearing how my sis's thoughts about her were not that great, i guess it was good that i rethought it. Although, i kinda didn't want to leave her out... and still feel a bit badly about it. Maan, I miss them already!

And I am a little bit worried about distantly admired neighbors.. I heard they are having a really rough time with the shaky weather and results of a fire that wasn't put out by the torrent of water that followed. I heard all the noise and shoving was so bad, it moved their whole house by what was it?..about 8 feet?! Thats hard for me to imagine! I guess their place was prepared for such events really.. but still, it was worse then encountered before.. and I hope the fire is able to be safely put out before too many more suffer from it.

I hope our cicadas sing again this year like they did once in the past. somehow it made the heat of summer bearable... and I have missed their sound.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

I remember...

I suppose I am one who has led something of an interesting life.. (just like the curse eh?) I have been told several times, that I could fill the pages of a book with it all... don't know that it'd be worth much for reading but... lol XD
Anyway, I mentioned an iceberg tip to a friend, and she seemed quite entertained.. so I said I would post more here... in the occasional 'I remember' segments of my life. Bear in mind.. I colorize a bit to protect the guilty.. as well as the otherwise innocent. I don't much like the idea of family anger over one person's remembrance vs another... since people remember things differently, even if they are of the same event.

The beginnings of my life are apparently shrouded in a bit of a mystery. and although I certainly don't recall any of it, others claim to.. and everyone seems to have a different story to tell... from the wild, to the complete norm. Now, personally.. I consider it all a great and colorful story.. to the point that I don't really care if it is true or not... but somehow the stories continue to entertain.

When I was really little, still in my first set of training wands, There is a story I remember told to me by the great and grand poobah mugwump.. father of the great mugwump who raised me. Great and grand mugwump had a lot to say really.. he was a big guy, i remember.. and although he occasionally gave me a fright by magically sticking my little feet to the ceiling, I considered him to be someone I admired. One of the things he insisted upon, was that there was no such thing as a dark greenman in our family-line. (dark greenmen were.. like a cross between a neighboring islander and one from far away in the dark lands to the south.)
..and also, that there were enemies of our family, that were seeking to rewrite our family history from the books... making us drift into obscurity of untruth.

He said, there was a time when our family had possession of a large island off the coast of a yet larger island. and the name of it was attached to our own family name. but because our family was related to other more well-known families, who were embroiled in a sort of clan war with others... and lost an important battle, we had to leave our island.. and it was given into the hands of others.
He told me a tale of how, under pressure from our enemies, there was an idea hatched, that we would flee that land and send our people to 'the land of better opportunity'. (I wish only that I had been old enough or simply with-it enough to ask for details on this subject.. like dates and relation names!)
Somewhere in the middle of this.. a relative, fairly drunk in a pub, got into a tangled issue of 'cheating at cards' after a horse had traded hands. So the drunkard, fleeing possible death, took the horse and fled with it into the woods. Which is how my family came to live in that backwards wooded area that I remember growing into. (To a man who was old when I was there, to remember even 16 years.. can be a really long time!)
So.. the end result, so said he, was that I was one who was brought over in secret from our enemies, into the place I was to be 'born' into. which would make me like either 1st or 2nd generation.. depending on just when (or where?) I was born.

To continue in thought from this story, I attempted once, to look into it.. wondering if there was truth.. an odd thing how many people have, at least a copy of their birth papers... I have a copy of an old file paper which only lists name and occupation. not time.. and I have had trouble in even requesting a copy of this from my home.. they have refused me, and considered sending police after me just for asking. they even sent me n old copy that was unstamped and I had to re request a stamped one because a paper without the stamp is just a paper and not considered legit by anyone in any place else.
So, using this paper as a query, i attempted to locate and speak with the listed doctor. I did find someone by the name, well retired... (he apparently was already an old man at the time I was first there) He said, that he often came to work to find children already born and waiting.. so he simply signed the papers and let them off with their families. He wasn't actually there for the birth... which might explain why I do not have a birth certif as such.. and the copy of the file I do have, doesn't list a time.

I also went to a small 'reading room' for those looking into their family past... and with a bit of help, I discovered my original family name was listed in an old book. this name being the name mentioned in great and grand poobah mugwump's story. I was soo excited! the book was ordered from some far away place.. and I waited for a time with bated breath. the day arrived, and there I sat, in that cluttered little room, and old book in my hands. I carefully opened it and leafed through a page or three.. my eyes seeking the name i so wanted to see at last and..
Suddenly a pair of huge meaty hands thrust into my view, grabbed my hands and hauled me out of my seat. I was quickly pushed out the door of the shop, hearing words to the effect that I was meddling in things i best not. I hit the roadside in a plop.. and heard the doorbells ring as the door shut.. and the click of a lock. You can imagine my surprise, eh? Although for a time, I looked, I never found another listing with that particular family name again.

The enchantress of the east wind, closely related to me, laughs this whole story off, saying that nono.. I was merely born under a bridge somewhere...(like a troll?) and since she is older, she would know best. right?

Asking the grand mugwump, son of the great and grand.. was a bit like pulling hen's teeth on a moonless night. He would only say, with a chuckle.. I was born on the way.

Then there is the story told by yet another relative, not so closely related really, who claimed to have visited the island and looked for relatives" over there.. she seems to think we are a part of the dark greenmen in a really way-back loong history. which, if true, would make me a very old generation indeed... likely dating further back then that of the revolution! Has my family really been here for so long?

and to think.. all this from just one little happening. XD
So when people ask where I started out.. in order to remain truthful (I am a horrible liar) I am forced to say.. it depends on which version of the story you believe the most. All of them have gaps.. some very obvious holes which, if i still had the chance to gain answers from, I would certainly ask.




Listening to: Classical
Current Show: dramas... still.
Feeling: a little under the weather *sniff*
Internet Tabs: AZNV.TV, MySoju, Mabinogi
Obsessing Over: Fragmented Memory pictures
Current Rant: one-sided love... *sigh*
very nearly as bad as a crush... only a little less stupid.

Sunday, February 06, 2011

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Portal-style chitchatter..

Hey there.. been a bit since I last spoke about portal(game) life. Here's something I have wondered a bit about.. How do you go about expressing yourself in a world or realm? especially if the place doesn't give you socials fit for the occasion you are searching for?

In the realm I have been spending the most of my time of late, I have two 'expressions' that cannot quite be governed by socials.
one, when I am happy, or especially pleased to see someone... I will often run around them in a circle. If the person is just as happy to see me, they will often join me and it will become a circle chase around a room.
and
two, If I am displeased with someone.. I will often *thump* the one I am unhappy with, as a sort of expressive warning. (like in the case of jealousy) and Yes, I have been known to occasionally *thump self* as well...usually when I just realized I am being especially dense about something.

I often wonder though, what others use to express themselves, when the world's socials just aren't fitting for the expression? (And no, I'm not speaking of expressions that are best left between two people in a private setting.)

also..

I wonder how people separate the difference between the portal life and that of rl?
To me, the online worlds are much like a sub-world in itself.. one is here, and the other, there. The only 'grey' areas being within the realm of feelings, which are real, no matter what world they happen to be in. Sometimes, this works out and I have a lot of fun,... and sometimes I get entangled in which direction I should 'really' go with what I feel. I try hard to show the difference in realms by the use of the names I was intro'd with.. even if I know their other-world names.

introspection.. (don't expect it to make a whole lot of sense.)
Recently, I have been given to leave a ring behind, and have been invited to pick up another. I'm a little sad to have to leave the ring.. it was no longer fun for the person dropping it.. But his feelings were more expecting then mine were... likely expecting a reaction I didn't give. Part of me, wants to simply be done with rings altogether.. so tired of expectations I can't/won't fulfill. and stymieing my wish to be happy with a partner.. who is happy with me. Even as I rage about how my partners knew how it was from the start.. and yet, each time, there was a step too far and a ring was dropped... causing unhappiness and even agony. (shades of a rl ghost.. an agreement for a simple relation.. that went overboard in a bad way. to the tune of 'Jim' I believe. *shiver*)
The one inviting me to pick up a ring, is a puzzle to me a lot of times. A puzzle in a different form then the one who recently dropped one.
The previous puzzle was mostly a simple why. I couldn't understand why such an opposite would wish to be aligned. I tried to allow for the possibility.. but perhaps it was my fault that it simply wasn't there for me. I am relieved to think that perhaps we can still be friends. (shades of a saying... guys cannot be just friends with girls.. still dunno what to think of that.)

this new invite though.. is a puzzle in the form of seemingly out-of-nowhere bursts. the bursts being not necessarily annoyed... Although It sometimes feels like it. Sometimes its just saying something unexpected.. not knowing just how i should reply... or if I should. I do like this one though. rather in spite of this, or maybe because of this, I'm not sure. ..very interesting to my sense of curiosity though... very tempting. and I would, if I'm not watching it, try to follow behind him like a waggy-tailed puppy on a leash. (and to think he has the tendency to dash off a lot and of a sudden too. lol!)(I am soo not a canine!) I value this a great deal.. I sometimes wonder at the depth... and if it's worth the effort and risk to even consider... especially as I'm fairly certain the expression would not be returned... and even in that, why I might wish it to. Must I have a cut-n-dried cold-faced limit imposed? Isn't that too much to expect though? Is it even possible? ..even to that of myself? hmm..

so I pause. would this just be inviting a change I'd rather not experience again? I'm really tempted.. wanting to be with.. and yet, not caring for the possible burst of negativity that has come several times before,.. in spite of whatever efforts to keep the situation from developing. I really don't wish to lose.. or risk losing this friendship. I know there's a chance.. a possibility that it will prove the magic combo and be fun again for both of us.. but what are the odds vs the result I am so afraid of?

I -will- prevent myself from becoming a 'Jim'. the very thought scares me into instant back-peddle... and shivering hesitation. ugh!

soo many questions!.. and no real confidence to ask them. :(


Listening to: KAT-TUN...and varied jpop/kpop/tpop
Current Show: dramas... as yet.
Feeling: A little confused and sad, but alright.
Internet Tabs: AZNV.TV, Mabinogi
Obsessing Over: Still trying to escape from reality
Current Rant: jealousy? I know it happens. I know
it shows insecurity.. that it can be both bad and good,
really. but... why does it have to happen?

Saturday, January 01, 2011

catching up

Hey there.. just thought to catch up a little... so far I'm still in the same spot. its a good thing. I finally managed to get starcraft 2... which I am -really- happy about. Yay!

Also touched bases with a good friend on mabi, who I have missed in all my 'away' time. Maybe knowing there is someone still out there will give me a bit of encouragement to give a little interest in my internet home once again.

Sis is talkin about a long ride out here with my bro in the early months of the new year. kind of foreboding.. I always seem to feel that way when there's talk of visiting family. its a bit like a sick-to-my-stomachache kind of nervousness. Not a very good feeling at all.

Monday, December 20, 2010

star ratings..moved.

adramas have moved! http://mdramam.blogspot.com/

Sunday, December 19, 2010

it's the holiday season..

so yeah.. happy whichever holiday you might be celebrating this season. For me, it happens to be mainly Christmas. I don't think I care too much for Christmas anymore.. not because of what it stands for, or for the thought that its a great time of the year to celebrate... but because of its hassle for me... seems like bad news just waits for this time o year to roll through before dropping a massive ball of horror around my ears. There is never enough of anything to go around, and no time in which to deal with it all.
Well, as usual, I'll try to make the best of what I do have, and hope to survive for another year's entry in hopes of 'maybe' breaking even... and standing in the same place come the new year. really, I think it's about all I -really- want for a gift... just to still be standing in the same place. At least there will be a pseudo-tree this year. just no spirit of the season for it... again. I'm not bored, honest.. but don't understand why my life has to be so chock-full of uproar ala time.

Stability is one of those yearned for things in my life I seem destined to consistently be without.


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Listening to: KAT-TUN: Real Face
Current Show: dramas... when possible.
Feeling: Holiday blues... I suppose
Internet Tabs: mysoju, AZNV.TV
Obsessing Over: Escaping reality
Current Rant: none.

Monday, November 29, 2010

moving 2

moving drama review to: http://mdramam.blogspot.com/

Friday, November 05, 2010

Music covers plus

Real Face
by KAT-TUN



Don't you ever stop
by KAT-TUN



Rescue
by KAT-TUN



Another sweet-sounding combo... in Chinese. I'm Yours (cover) by Jason Mraz

Monday, September 27, 2010

Random Gaga

Personally, I love the musical tunfulness of the lady's music.. somehow she can make even the blehist of words seem like a hoppin dance step. I don't care for many of her vids... so I resort to listening to parodies and covers of her music... and I have found several of real talents. Check it out.


Bad Romance parody - A men's chorus?


Muffintop - missesmuffintop


Lady Gaga Melody - Sam Tsui and Kurt Schneider


Greyson Chance singing Paparazzi


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Listening to: A ringing sound from a deaf ear.
Current Show: Warehouse 13, and Haven
Feeling: A little concern for the possible loss of a good friend..
...hoping its just paranoia ... concern also for my sis.. I havent heard from her since some months before my birthday.. it doesnt seem much like her.
Internet Tabs: Mabi, Facebook(somewhat), Vindictus, )and InfiniteAion
Obsessing Over: (see feeling, above)
Current Rant: Why do some girls seek to make their boyfriends toss all of their friends to the gutter in order to be with them? If the guy's friends are willing to accept you, why can't you accept them? doesn't mean you have to like all of them, just as they aren't all required to like you either. but they -are- his friends. After all, isn't it often the case, where they were friends months if not years before you were even in the possibility of the picture?
and please don't think you are going to change that guy of yours.. it never seems turn out well at all. He is who he is and if you don't like how he is, best not even get started in a relationship with him. if the guy changes, it's because its something he wants to do... not just because its what you want him to do. Really, aren't we all basically the same way about that? In the immortal words of Popeye, "I yam what I yam, and that's all that I yam! We are just who we are. you either accept that soon, or you move on... for better or worse.

Sunday, September 05, 2010

gamely (gamey?) musings... euw!

Sitting here thinking about the things I like, and those I do not about the world this new portal led to... which is called Aion.

One of the best things about it is.. the graphics are completely stunning in its complexity!
Even the classic good vs evil theme isn't too badly represented.
The crafting is fairly unique.. if a tiny bit difficult to get started with.
And this is a game that is actively being improved upon all the time, as I understand it. Soon there will be pets, mounts?, swimming, player housing, expanded areas etc..



On the Ehh side of things.. All Roads lead to the abyss, which is esentially pvp-land. Call me a carebear, if you like, even though I never much cared for the toon. I'm not big into pvp.. I have seen, far too often what it can do to friendships. It isn't pretty. Please oh please give us more quests that don't lead to the open battlefield!

Another ehh thing, I have found is.. on the crafting side of things, there is gathering on both land and air.. which isn't an issue.. but.. some of it is on the mobs, now while this might be fine if you are in level range of said mobs... but you know what happens when you grow beyond the mob's level? they stop dropping. So if you are needing a crafting item that just happens to be on, say a crab, but you have grown beyond its level.. you will never again see the item you need to have for the crafting.

update... I ended up leaving this world.. as the rifting got to be a great opportunity for overpowered pvp'rs to enter the area and kill who-so-ever should stray outside one of the towns.. any-one of the towns, and there was no place left for a non-pker, such as me, to level in somewhat safety.

the graphics were sure inspiring though!!!












Wednesday, August 25, 2010

An old yet new world

A familiar portal opened up a couple of days ago. I, being fairly wizened by now, to the possibilities.. left a marker so I could find my way back, and hopped through the portal. Happy surprises met me at first sight of the jungle trees and craggy hills.. with the sweet sound of surf and the whoosh of wind preceding a coming storm. I was in Timorous Deep! This was one of the first portals I ever got swept through!
This is the homeland of Rata! *I quickly looked around for him, but as usual, the sneaky critter was nowhere to be innocently found. Quite likely, he was holed up in his tree city of fairies. I quickly made a mental note to pay that area a visit soon.

The portal that brought me here was small really. much smaller then I remember. there were soo many limits! limits on race, on class, on bag space even! I couldn't chat out, couldn't send a mail, nor even buy something off the broker... and from the whispers around me, I suspect I might just have a problem concerning limits in magic power level as well. Not to mention, and yet I am, Crafting ~still~ sucks in this place)

One of the big upsides though, for me anyway.. is the straight-on ability to see this place once again! I can still travel around.. to see all of the other places as well.
(Means I can still twirl and sing down the streets of Quenos.. and slink and pray I don't get caught in the perpetual crampt and winding alleys of Freeport.)

Apparently this portal hasn't been in function for very long... maybe as early as last month. So hopefully the powers are still tweaking the do's and don't's... and not just hangin out in the item market. Go check it out!

Everquest 2 extended
http://launch.soe.com/eq2x/?sessionId=W9j4.o5EbJyCrvSw








Tuesday, August 10, 2010

food for thought.. or maybe... a thought for food?

There is this story about these hard-working fishers.. who got up very early every morning to work hard at their nets and provide for their family.. living day by day like this for.. generations.
One day, along comes this.. wandering prophet... who tells them to get up, leave everything behind and wander away with him... to become like.. his outreach. which they did do.
On another day, the group sat on a hill, hungry.. and the prophet asked if there was any food to be had. Strangely, there was.. a little. certainly not enough for the whole group. But somehow, it stretched out, filled them all up, and there were even leftovers.
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That must have taken a lot of faith, for the fishers to do something like that. To just up, and leave everything they had worked so hard for. Trusting in some unseen unknown to provide for them? ..or simply choosing not to worry about it, perhaps.

And what about the one who offered up his meager lunch for the group? What could he/she have been thinking? "well, I don't actually need this food... just because its the day and age where you have to work really hard for whatever scraps you can manage to get hold of"? or maybe.. "Here I am, being soo selfless..in giving up what is likely to be my only meal for the day, if not for the next several days, to these guys.... and what will I get in return, huh? you think they are going to pay me?"
and even after.. when he got the leftovers back... was he thankful and surprised? was he maybe a little bitter that all his nice food had been handled by a whole group of dirty smelly guys?

How many people in today's world, would even consider doing such things?
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Take Me to Tomorrow
by John Denver


Hey everybody, tell me how do you feel? Are you satisfied with your life, do you think it's real?
Tell me.. how is your head, what are your dreams?
Do you have any plans, do you have any schemes?
Do you care about, about anybody? I'd like to know, is the answer "no"?

Hey everybody, tell me, what's on your mind?
Do you think there's nowhere else to go, that there's nothing left to find?
Are you happy where you are, do you have anything to share?
Do you think you're gonna waste your life.. spending it there?
Would you like to find a way out, do you think it's worth a try?
I'd like to know, is the answer "no"? Well maybe so....

Comeon..Take me to tomorrow, take me there today, I've had my fill of sorrow and living this way.
Take me to tomorrow, that's where I'd like to be, the day after tomorrow is waiting for me.
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Listening to: A rattling fan
Current Show: Leverage, Psych, warehouse 13, and Haven
Feeling: ehh kinda crappy atm
Internet Tabs: Mabi, Facebook(somewhat)
Obsessing Over: inexplicable things
Current Rant: injustice and lack of understanding

Monday, July 19, 2010

Worries for a Foundation

Once again, it seems, our wondrous leader appears to be dangerously close to stomping on the rules of our forefathers.. rules that were the founding strength of everything that makes us who we are today. and before you scoff.. rules and thoughts that, yes... still prove true today. I worry for our future.

Yes, I said 'again' Ok, I put a {Link here} for a blog entry concerning this subject.

Now we have in issue with the internet. There should already be in place, the thought that the head of our great land should, if emergency arises, be able to gain some control of the net in our area... after all, he already does with the rest of our communication abilities, right? The problem is... if the control were given without the 'emergency' specifications and details thereof.. it will give the 'king' a tad more power then he should have. History already gives us a clue as to what happens after that. Now you might think I'm going on about issues that are not yet come.. worrying over nothing, essentially. but we have already seen evidence of the unconstitutional munching this will cause. Messages are popping up all over the net, seized and closed down by the government... movie pirates, music pirates, and whole blogging servers (need proof?.. here's a {link} to a fairly well-known blog site.).

While I don't, as your average citizen, have much to say concerning the shut-down of internet pirating.. that last little "blog" detail is a problem. As the anti-war howlers (and the pro-war howlers as well...)love to point out.. Freedom of speech, baby! That's the 1st amendment. It's another one of those rules there were created as a foundation for this great nation of ours. Is this the start of something bigger and badder? Are you worried as well, that it just might be?

Consider this: If you have one bad apple in a whole bushel of good apples, do you throw out the whole bushel? Our gov seems to think so and our leader is pushing the new laws into place, in spite of the protesting of the people he governs.

From all I have witnessed thus far, I'd say...


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Listening to: Alexander Rybak
Current Show: Leverage, Psych, Heroes
Feeling: ehh
Internet Tabs: Mabi, Facebook
Obsessing Over: -.-
Current Rant: The heat, politics. government,
history, and the general craze of living.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

A slight history lesson

There was this guy born in Austria.. died in Sweden... whose name was Josef Frank.
He was an architect, engineer, and a textile designer. He worked with Oskar Strnad, a man in common with his work. in 1965, he received the Grand Austrian state Prize for his architecture, which showed his love of space, function, and comfort. He was probably best known, though, for his whimsical texture styles.



for more reading refs...
Wiki.
Faces of Design
meublepeint

Thursday, July 01, 2010

It was a Mugwump, Professor, honest!

I remember.. a time when I was out on the apprenticeship trail. It felt like a long never ending line to me. Arch-wizard mugwump, said that this was the best thing for me... just before zooming off to the south desert-land and all the sun iced tea he could possibly guzzle. I felt a little abandoned.. even as I faced my fears of unknown situations coming up. Ol Mugwump had given my name out to willing ears without my knowledge...not a new situation, really.
With a great deal of trepidation. I finally arrived at my destination in one piece and met the 'family' which was fairly large. They were dour strangers tho.. and their smiles and welcome were quite temporary. The head wizard was indeed the ruler of the roost and he seemed rather unkempt and none-to-agreeable, although polite enough, I suppose. I was there long enough to wonder again at the fix I may have gotten myself into.. and an episode with several large twisting disasters.
Fortunately, none were hurt that I was then aware of. One evening, as I sat listening to music in my cluttered 'new' bedroom, there came a knock at the door. The local constabulary was there along with some ill-tempered long-nosed female who gruffly insisted I pack my bags immediately. (At least.. I think she was female.)
Having no choice in the matter, I repacked what I could and followed my carried things to the door. It seems the wizard was not fit for mastering.. and had gotten into a fair bit of trouble. and so by my presence there, I was in trouble as well.
I was quickly stuffed aboard a coach, told never to return to the area, and given escort clear to the border like some dangerous unwanted criminal. It was quite the event really. One I don't care to repeat.

Listening to: Hell yeah
by Montgomery Gentry
Reading: this blog?
Current Show: Leverage and Psych
Feeling:somewhere between
peaceful and slightly depressed.
Internet Tabs: Mabi, Facebook
Obsessing Over: movie cgi. wow!
Current Rant: The heat, the bugs, the annoyances!